got the format of the site up! did most of the progress all of yesterday with the first sort of half ie tabs I - IV. lots of indexes in indexes but i think its relatively straight-forward. was gonna wait to link it all together until i got the start of all of it but decided to not bother in waiting and full-send it instead. a good portion of its already drafted (however many years ago it may have been) but it needs a little more refinement, hopefully i can have it all up by the end of next month.
on top of linking that portion i also added in the V section though its yet to be linked with its severe lack of...anything really! that will take a little longer to put together but im fine with that. also decided that i might as well fix up my directory while i was at it. got it laid out pretty much as i like it! finally managed to find an askbox / guestbook that worked for what i needed so that was quite exciting. while i hadnt given it too much thought i guess im keeping a journal up now too. i like a place to write out my thoughts while i work and its convient to have that directly into my site. not sure of a nice sort of format but that can be tweaked as i go along.
also laid out the tabs for my X stories! very excited for that though it will take some more thought while i work through a sort of format. the files i have them under need to be cleaned up as well, started it last night so ill probably continue tonight. once thats organized and formatted then its really just a matter of getting back into writing! however long that will take. this is just a place to dump drafts so i shouldnt feel too inclined to overthink it all...hopefully.
i should probably go back into learning coding as well, knowing a little more than just the basics would be good. my current code is jank, but somewhat functional! cant say nothing about the formatting on any devices that arent my own. oh well. happy to have something together at the very least!
havent done anything yet except for clicking through my site cause im so pleased with it! i did that! and she looks so lovely :) im a bit nervous to open my other computer - newer but with a much smaller screen - and see how its viewed on a seperate device cause im sure all the measurements are completely off and then ill have to go through and try to fix it all and then fail miserably LOL for now i will live in blissful ignorance.
not quite sure what to do right now! might take a break or i might go straight into re-organizing files. should probably re-orient my site to do list first though. as i said the links to insert are the pages for my X stories which is exactly what needs to be organized...
im really unsure about the final format though! i broke all my stories down to how theyre formatted [one-off short stories vs short story series vs chaptered etc] and these are left for last bc it spans over chaptered works, oneshots, art, and more. a lot to consider and a lot to format!!!! ill start drafting up some ideas soon though. i think ill re-do the to-do list, take a break, then get into organizing the files first.
alright! took a break to eat and then showered. i scrolled through some sites and did a few minor tweaks on my own here and there. the next thing i will start to work on is organizing files! im not sure if i want to go through all the X stories files first and then start looking to format the respective pages...or do it page by page. im not sure if all of them will be formatted the same and i guess thats the main consideration. im not sure how its gonna be formatted at ALL though...i think i want to seperate oneshots into similar sort of..time periods? i think it will depend on the story. for caroline im sure it will be time periods following the main sort of story line and then a few off-branching possibilities. but joy im not too certain just yet.
i say that but i do think time periods works well since the bulk of the story is split up over many years span. i was also in consideration of alternate universes that i like to keep up with. theyre in no way connected to the main joy story i just find them as fun little what-ifs. i could possibly split them all into their own indexes? have a main sort of page that branches into different era-specific pages. that could work with avaline as well! theyre a little easier to handle seeing as the alternate timelines are more...intentional
i like that idea a lot! i wonder if it could work for the rest of them too. this might be a sign ill have to re-organize files first haha just so i know what im working with. jenny in particular needs some heavy, heavy sorting as shes my oldest and i really did just dump a fuck ton of files spanning years into a single folder. i should also go poke around at other sites as well. ive seen a few with their own oc tabs but for some reason the ones i stumble across never seem to be working -_- oh well remains to be seen. ill set this idea to the side and get back to work.
okay actually i listed it out! having an initial index is going to make everything so much simpler. the only problem is that while joy and avaline have clearly defined events; joy has five different universes, avaline has 3 reincarnation eras - the other two (caroline and jenny) arent as clear cut off the bat. i had begun to go into caroline to sort through but it was alloted to; childhood, school years, future - with everything else sort of shoved into 'assorted'. not particularly clean nor friendly! and i dont even want to THINK about jenny yet oh my lord.
then again i would say shes maybe a little easier because there are sort of defined universe. perhaps i could be more clear-cut and give her two off the bat - the human and the non-human sides. their story isnt as put together bc theres so many loose peices but that would leave it a little less complicated. so theres 5 / 3 / 2 - i feel like the only logical thought process would be designate caroline as 4 and see where it goes from there huh. oh but then again i have caroline between avaline and jenny so maybe its not as important...if you go with 3 and 2 adding to 5 so maybe caroline should also be 5.
well regardless i have the other three haha so ill just sort through caroline a little bit and see what i come up with.
i think ive pinned down the issue! caroline is a very dynamic story. that was her whole appeal from creation. of course this is just a very small sort of...what if in regards to a different point of view involving her. as an over-view the whole story follows a strict 'canon' that leads up to the 'main' story. but in the process of putting her in situations, as i usually do, i created off branch timelines! i havent thought about them as much as i have say joy for example.
so theres two that i would like to consider and a couple of concepts in the vague sense of the word. now the question is whether or not i draw a line in the sand with this or continue to get silly with it. hmmm cause i do have a few random ideas here and there as well.
okay! well i decided. cause i remembered a few ideas that i had as well. so far its at 5 with one main canon and 4 kind of random off-branches. similar to how i have joy! i think all my bases have sort of been covered with these ideas so i shouldnt, hopefully, have more ideas. but if i do...oh well! caroline is all about getting silly with it anyway haha okay! i feel a bit better now that i have a sort of goal to work towards :p now its a matter of sorting in regards to these new groups and then actually getting into page formats.
took a break and now im back to working! organizing the files in a simple way, just putting all my notes and ideas seperate into documents and putting them in alloted story folders! so work will be heavily individualized rather than the more general approach i had intended. which is fine! its all very good and clear. joy and avaline went by like a breeze, caroline wasnt too hard but i was worried i was missing notes. i dont think i was i just hadnt written down what i thought i had haha. but now im back on jenny and oh lord.
in good news the files were much more organized then i had thought! i forgot i had gone through everything already and condensced it into a single document (or respective project folders) which is nice but now im doubting how the story is split. which is no fault of my own notes - rather im unsure of the story direction in totality. which is not very good. not to say i dont have characters or events or plot points...its just. a lot. and ive cut off all the fat and now im left piecing together the bones.
its really just a matter of thinking it through i guess. i have nearly fifty pages of writing so im sure theres some sort of story to be cut up in there.
disregard my previous struggle. it appears that i DID split what i had written into two parts. theres some sort of story there i think. im not gonna worry about it right now though instead im gonna focus on formatting each page one at a time.
im gonna start with joy! i have some art and i have...well i guess drafted work but im not sure if ill be putting it up cause i dont think its very good haha but oh well. the main idea however is simply just...getting it formatted. which i have the index page in mind i guess but after that im not sure. as well as the fact its split into different universes augh. i think ill focus on the main one first of course and maybe have the rest there but locked? unsure what the sort of layout will look like bc ive already used a picture...
i dont know! i dont want to over-complicate it. just gotta keep it simple and easy to navigate! because i want it to be simple and easy to navigate. and also im not good enough at coding to make anything fancier.
okay change my mind. i think im gonna call it a night and then start up on joy tomorrow! i can only do so much of one project in a day before it doesnt work in my brain anymore. at least itll give me some time to think over some layouts. once joy is put together the rest should hopefully come easier as well bc i can build off the same format. or copy and paste it directly idk depends on how it works out !
anyway. good night! its been a successful day :)
made it through the night with minimal pain! i pulled a muscle in my chest because i have a persistent cough from being sick and persistent bad posture from joint pain. or something like that. took like two hours to bring myself to get up because dear lord that was rough. got up eventually and made myself some tea, re-filled my waterbottle, ate a banana, and got a bottle of pain meds.
in the meantime i was thinking a lot about formatting! i think i have the idea for the index which can be applied to all of the others as well. i have the start of some concepts for the joy page but ill have to work through it first. guess its simply time to start working!
oh and i got to 500 views on this site! thats nice i think. i wanted to go follow some cool sites to look through them but i know what i write isnt for everyone and i wouldnt want to bring it to them first. ive been making sure to have content warnings on everything and i did a little notice in my about section. itll take a bit to find it since its not on the front page but no one should stumble into something they dont want to see.
in that line of thinking i might put the content warning for the X stories on their index pages - i want to see if i can make a little tab that you can click to reveal it since theres some spoilers and things! to be looked into. for now its back to working.
took a bit of fiddling but i got the index together! most of the work was getting the images together and figuring out a way to edit them so they all look consistent haha - originally was i just gonna do the same lock across all but i wanted to individualize it a little bit and so i got them all their own ^_^ i think it looks lovely! i might still fiddle with the format though. right now its just a direct link beneath the picture so i can include story title but im not sure if i like it. i could link directly into the picture but i wanted the story name in there...AND CONTENT WARNINGS! i forgot to consider that augh
i could put all information in the little tab? i say that as if i know how to even do it, i hope its not javascript...but if i am able to do it then i might put all images into a table so i can have the second row and see if i can keep the text into the colums. i dont know if that makes sense. or if its possible. or if when i do it then i hate it immediately...
im just gonna look into how to do the tab and then i think ill do my original idea of x beneath the locks. and if i hate that then ill just leave the locks as they are! the main idea i just having the general format and i can fiddle with visuals at a later date.
I FIGURED IT OUT! the real problem was that i didnt know what i was describing - just that i had seen another site use the same function so i new it was in some way possible. turns out its a summary tag! and details but im not sure what each specifically do so ill have to look into that later but at least for now i have the start of something!!!
haha im very happy i love how this looks! i wonder if i should go back to impliment it in my other pages too? so i could have story statistics or keep content warnings hidden for readers choice! overall very pleased!!! i know its simple but i am not a coder at all so whenever i discover a new function its so wonderful.
i think how ill have it though is to put the warnings into a list! i havent used a list at all yet but shes coming into play. but now im wondering if i should link the page into the image or keep the title there or make the title the drop down but then people might miss the content warnings hmmmm things to consider!
okay i think ive done the most that i can for the index! fiddled around with some placements and small details. might still change the content tab but for now it works! i think ill take a short break to get something to eat before i start trying to work on the actual page for joy. the index page will be relatively the same across all stories but im not sure if the actual content page will be! well i might have a similar page structure but theres more variables to consider. oh well. remains to be seen.
ate lunch and decided to shower because my chest was hurting really bad and i hoped the hot water would help it. debating whether or not this is doctor-visit level of injury. ive had some pretty bad sickness and pain and general whatever but the last time i went was only because i was worried about an ear infection. the only reason id wonder about the doctor with this is not the pain but because its centered around the left of my chest and around my heart. if it was anywhere else in my body i probably wouldnt worry as much. okay and now i just googled stuff and it made me nervous -_- ... i WAS getting better before i coughed weird again and then it was much worse lol
im probably over thinking it though. or maybe im not. might leave it and decide to tomorrow to see if i feel better. lol i hate writing that in a journal this feels like foreshadowing.
anyway! ate and showered and im back at my desk. id lay down but im in pain not really tired and once i go down i am not getting up easy. only thing to do is keep working! i have a vague sort of idea for what i want the layout to be but itll be a whole effort to put it together. well hopefully not that much of an effort lol ive listed out all the things i want / need to include and ill probably draw out how they could fit on a page ie links and tabs and such. then see how i could achieve it in a webpage! so basically no idea but we stay silly
organized everything i need uploaded into four main components. i have [Main Story] / [Character Sheets + Family Tree] / [Oneshots + Comics] / [Reference Collection] - and now its just a matter of placement. my goal is to have all information laid out in an easy to understand way so as a reader theres no struggle with navigation. at the same time i do value aesthetics to an extent! i dont just want to have links on a page yknow. and on top of that theres consideration of future layouts. because i have the full story planned and i know how many chapters and acts...it still needs to be written. information needs to be revealed in a certain way.
went to make some tea and i had a vision. i know exactly how i want it laid out but i do not know how to achieve such a thing. i think i might have to go find those pre-done layouts so i can copy the code and build off of it.
basically the plan is fairly simple. i want buttons on the top except theyre drop down menus! not sure the exact set up but vaguely it is [STORY] and [EXTRAS] so theres on main page that lays it all out but you can also visually see the sort of order - mainly in regards to the story. bc its a mix of main story and side stories and comics but theyre all ordered in a sense. extras is free for all - i might split it up a little more or i might not itll depend how i feel.
thats just the top - all information can be found in those tabs. for the page itself i want to have character art on the side - ill probably have to draw something specific for this but for now i can just use their character sheets. somehow maybe beneath that i want to link it to the family tree bc thats a whole thing in itself - plus goes along with just more character sheets. but thats just far left. on the middle / right i want to have another box for like current main story updates. again exact layout debatable but maybe like the drop down menu for acts and stuff...something like that. then on the bottom a little newly updated bar. recent additions / new updates / whatever else. i feel like that would be nice
i think ill see if i can lay it out myself first. its really just getting the page as i need it be. the top is just a table and ill look up how to do the drop down menu. the middle is where im sort of conflicted. im wondering if i do a seperate table and theres a way to have a colum a certain size i think. or if i can insert the picture and start adding text and it just aligns next to it lol i have no idea. oh well. time to experiment!
pain and suffering and such. my brother made some rice, eggs, and sausage which was very delicious but then i started choking...the universe is calling for my death i suppose. or maybe i was eating too fast. regardless ive taken a break. so far i have tabs on top and an image. took some time to edit the image but shes in there now! and sized down. except i cannot for the life of me figure out how to get it off to the side in the way i want it. i think ill try table again and do some adjustments from that to see if itll work but if not then i will submit myself to reading more about css and formatting.
also still need to figure out drop down menu but i havent even looked at it yet. hope it wont be too complicated.
okay figured out how to do drop down menus! i just found the code online and copied it but i had to go through each individual setting and adjust so i could see what it was doing. sort of got the menus to a theme. still needs to be adjusted but the base is there. now i need to align the rest of the page. its really only three [or four depending how its viewed] elements that need to be set up. i have the character pictures together. all i need to do is push it to the left and have a box on the right to write in. thats really it. and also align a box underneath idk i need to figure it out !!!
but i also dont want to research a bunch right now bc its gonna make me want to go back to fix other parts of my site so maybe i should look into pre-made layouts to edit -_- augh work to be done
going through a few free site layouts and wow! i cant believe i actually understand the code now haha like i mean in a general sort of sense. its why i code never use pre-made layouts because i didnt understand how anything worked but now i have the basics down and i can sort of build off of that. from what im seeing it seems like div is very important which was the next thing i was going to learn if i kept researching code but i got bored and thought i could work around it. turns out thats not true!
regardless ill have to get back into it...later. ill put together some jank type of code for now and then learn more so i can go back and edit as i please. my intention for this site was for practice anyway! preperation for my 'official' site. though its nice to work on this one. anyway im gonna continue searching through but ive found a few already that might give me what i want with massive overhaul of the code lol !
best case scenario has happened! while i understand and appreciate the work people have done with their free sites (most people want something a little more 'finished' and interesting - power to them!) i wanted one that was kept very simple. and i found it! it was the older version of the sadgrl freesite which was very very useful because its basically put everything into a series of boxes and all i need to do is go through and figure out what each one does and then i can implement it into the page!!! very very useful. hopefully i can manage how i think i can. the main thing is to remove how its contained so it fits the full site and then add in the information. so very very simple. and from a quick look it seems that everything is contained in the div tags so maybe i do need to go off to learn about that...ill do it later. for now i can really start to work!
I GOT IT! oh my god i got the image to the left !!!! its so simple and yet !!!! okay finally things are working out again. i have some sort of start. its very rough and ugly right now but its a start and thats all i need. gonna get the main content box aligned and then its a matter of simple adjustments and adding in all the extra pages as i see fit. peace and love and so on.
okay. i got the layout or at least the START of a layout. not as nice as i want it to be but thats okay cause i can work on that. its the beginning of something!!
i think the next step is to re-orient myself. i have a bajillion tabs open that i need to go through and i need to re-organize my to do list to figure out what the next step is. whether thats working on more pages or working on content or working on cosmetics. either way progress is being made and its only forward from here.
cleaned up the page a little more. still not happy with it but itll take a little bit for me to pin that down. i think im done working on it for the night at least and i can come back tomorrow with a fresh perspective! managed to get through a whole lot more than i thought id be able to. i should either start working on organizing actual files in preperation for tomorrow or start writing again. which i fear i should do, but i dont want to so here i am. well i would like to write actually but not what im quote unquote supposed to. guess we will see!
changed my mind i know what im going to do. im not gonna work on any of the front page stories for the rest of the month. which is only two days so its not long. instead im gonna spend that time to refine the site and organize files in regards to the X stories. if i do write anything then itll be, again, in regards to those. i think as of right now - i went and cut up an apple to eat and im gonna have a shower. when i get out im gonna start on organizing joy files.
it wont be too much to do really because all i have to do is put all the oneshots in event order. which for the most part they already are. it wont determine the order of how i complete them but rather the order of posting.
the goal with joy is that her story is completely chronological meaning the main story just jumps in years. all oneshots fall in the scenes between that time. a very straightforward beginning to end sort of understanding. most of the other X stories follow a similar idea but only joy has a very set beginning and end! makes it easy to organize and such.
GOD BLESS !!!! i finally caved and decided to check my site from my other computer and it looks just as good if not better !!! the colors are a bit more saturated and the screen is smaller but it all works so nice and im very pleased.
and i did say that i was taking a break from the site but i lied because i have new ideas and i want to see if i can impliment them. theres two main problems in regards to the current joy page. there was three but i fixed one. the first was i didnt like the link beneath the joyhal character portraits. i changed the words and i like it now. word might change but the idea remains the same. second problem was with the drop down menu - i didnt like how box-y the links looked. i like that you can hover over them to get a different color but it was just a rectangle and there was no line of seperation when your mouse wasnt over the links. i understand that is how the example code i used works so i might have to find a different tutorial so i can see if theres different css properties i can alter.
the third issue - which i have some ideas of solutions - is that the 'main content' box was again. too much of a box. i didnt like how it was just Red. which actually now that im looking back at the page i think i fixed it. originally i was going to see if i could have a background image so it could just be red but make it like a softer shape and make the background just black. ie illusion of smaller box. but i was fiddling with the position of the drop down menus and now rather be seperate above the boxes its like overlayed the boxes. and since the buttons were black it like makes the illusion of a little dip in the background idk i actually like it a lot haha
okay well i guess that problem is for the most part fixed. the second half of the issue was that there was just a lot of empty space at the bottom so i was wondering if i could fill it in with something else. whether that be a little update status or maybe another image? a summary? no idea. for now im actually quite pleased so all i need to do is see how i can fiddle with the drop down menus!
after that im gonna go back through everything ive already done and add in summary tags so for content warnings + story indexes that are split into acts or chaptered series. just to make it all look a little nicer. i think thats the only visual thing i want to fix for now and then ill get into organizing joy files and consider on how i want to build the rest of the pages.
kept tweaking it and i hate to say it. the hover drop down menus have to GO !!!! i like the concept but its not giving me what i want it to and so theyre gone. will be gone. havent done it yet! gonna have to re-sort some files, re-shuffle a few concepts etc etc. while id like to have it all easily in order and understandable...this is my site so i can do whatever i desire !!! and as i do desire it is not these drop down menus.
ill get into that in a little bit though. for now im gonna re-organize the rest of the site as i had planned. then ill get into joy files then ill get into reformatting the page. unless i get distracted again and do something else.
didnt get distracted but i did decide that i didnt want summary tags on any of the front page stories lol i think its sort of unnecessary when the format works nice as it is. i did reformat the journal however! much easier to view and much easier to archive. so pros and cons all around. so now just gotta re-organize my notes on joy which really theres not much to go through there! its mostly organized anyway so thats nice. so ill get it together then see what im working with.
made good progress! split it up into four folder with six eventual seperate linked pages. got me thinking on how i wanted to go about the content and a few changes that ive decided to make! mainly in regards to the art vs writing aspect of it cause i wanted to use this story to practice drawing more haha
in that line of thinking im just gonna put all my ideas into a single document - vaguely organized into plot order if possible - and then ill pick and choose what to write and what to draw as i go on! which seems obvious but it wasnt my original plan haha
in a similar note its fun going through the ideas i had because its been a while since i really sat down to think about joy and it turns out i DO have more ideas. sometimes im worried that ive lost the touch and the story feeling boring and then i imagine an incredibly fucked up situation that is funny in concept and horrifying in practice and im satisfied once more. so last thing to do is put it in some kind of order and i can take considerations with the site!
decided i didnt want to bother trying to put all my ideas in some sort of order bc that takes the fun out of it instead i put them all into a spreadsheet with each given a number. so next time i want to work on the story ill just get a random number generator to choose for me and ill decide on the spot lol that feels like a fun system until i inevitably get bored and resort it. oh well! at least the files are all somewhat organized!!! im starting to get tired so i think ill take a break to eat something and then decide if i want to go to bed. i probably will i think. that way tomorrow i can start fresh on all the pages! lots and lots to format.
im awake! and in a considerable less amount of pain this time. excited to get to work and all. the main thing [as of now] to change on the joy page is fixing the buttons and maybe the main page too? i need to add some sort of graphic on the bottom but also need to keep consideration for the spacing. ill fiddle around with that i think.
alright made some changes and fiddled around with a few ideas. the biggest thing was i changed the drop down menus into regular buttons and i also decided to change all links yellow when you hover.
i wanted to add in the rest of the main story onto the front page but have the links x'd out. unfortunately i couldnt figure out a way to add style mid-paragraph. well i might have found a way to do it let me go see if this works.
okay it didnt work lol but i might have been going somewhere with it! might need to keep fiddling but im not super stressed. ill just add them as they go along. so theres only two things im kinda eh on right now. one being i dont like my link names at the top. i just feel like its missing something or im not using the right words. not sure. and then also i need to add the visual banner / button / art or whatever at the bottom of the main container. but thats not super important either so ill leave it for a while. actually i might have just gotten an idea hm. okay to be considered. possibly. idk i feel like the page is just a bit empty. i might take away the red background just to have it all on one color and see how i feel. its better than before i can say that at least so progress has been made.
oh well the main important thing is that all the links to all the pages are there and now its just a matter of getting stuff in the pages. visuals can always be altered so on and so forth.
took a break. ate and showered and made some tea. got my eyes away from the screen to consider a few options. looking back i think what im going to try is to make another sidebar but on the right so i can center the main page and have the information in the middle. i added a footer too. but yeah information in the middle and see if i can adjust the buttons to be there and then another sidebar with maybe a black background? not sure what will go there but just for spacing reasons. idk im just moving things around now cause im not satisfied lol but ill get there hopefully. i think next time i take a a break im just gonna start writing the sidestories or whatever i feel like haha.
dear god!!!! it took me way longer than what should have been necessary to put in another sidebar. i had to completely restructure the code but it looks a lot better now! i have achieved some sort of vision. just needs some minor edits here and there - like i need to change the other picture on the side but i think i know how i want to achieve that. overall im a bit more satisfied with it! gonna get in the other image then see how it looks.
got the new image on the other side and im actually very happy with how its turned out! the layout is simple but does what it needs to do. i think for the rest of the X stories itll follow a similar sort of idea but maybe minor tweaks here and there. theres only three more pages to do of these so its not like WAIT I FUCKING LIEDDDDDD i forgot theres like a bunch of sub-indexes LOL okay that sucks. um. not my problem right now so who cares. got the front page up for now!
i think the only thing i might tweak from here on would be some colors. but the red in the middle wont be as jarring as i start writing and uploading chapters. at least i hope so. but thats really it like im happy with my links and pictures for the most part! as i said before i think i will take a little break from working on the site to write some stuff for fun - need to write it anyway so i have some oneshots to put up. ill get back into it later on.
started working then i got bored so i took a break. the next thing im focusing on is actually going back to my draft / notes for - really just the first joy story - and then basically updating it. only the first two chapters were written out and the rest were done in bullet-points but theres a lot of stuff to be changed. i hadnt worked on it for so long because of that. the biggest things were name changes, character relationships, and time period.
name change was easy to handle just tedious. find and replace is your friend! character relationships wasnt too bad because i hadnt gotten that far into the story. i didnt take much out rather just add detail in. but the biggest change was the time period. originally it was set in early 2000s like most of my modern stories until it continued to expand and later events were years into the future. personally i hate doing that so i decided to push it back and put them in mid-eighties so the story would end in 2000s. but then i had the issue of internet and online functions which were integral to the plot. so just now i decided to move the time AGAIN and instead place it in the mid 90s so basically the birth of internet. which was good because all i needed was obscure forums and webpages.
but it also means i have to go back through everything and change how scenes are played out due to technical restraints. nothing incredibly difficult and honestly changes are for the better but tedious nonetheless. also its been a while since i got to read over chapter by chapter so this is my own refresher. itll help place oneshots in a clearer timeline at least. so ill get through that then get through organizing ideas and such again and then maybe back to working on the site. to be seen!
got through two chapters! im going through and listing out all the scenes in each chapter so i can visually see how its laid out and can compare my future ideas to see if anything can fit in the spaces or if they should be done independently. so nothing too difficult except having to read through my bad writing but oh well. im gonna get through the rest of this act and then see what i should do.
got through stage one! most changes were fairly minor so it wasnt hard to work around. whats more likely is that im gonna be adding on top of whats already there - transition scenes and little details etc. theres a lot to fill out. that will come as it does.
the logical thing to do would be to continue going through the chapters. i just need to focus on the first story for now so theres only 12 more but idk. might work on organizing the ideas a little bit. i think ill just go through a page and then go back to reviewing the next act.
got through stage 2 of the first book. had a decent few changes but fairly happy overall. also got to organizing my ideas document. the way im doing it is by writing / art / concepts. everything that leans explicitly as one form of media gets to be done as such and the rest which are usually vague kinks or toys just get sorted into concepts. leaves some flexibility and such.
ill probably go through and finish the rest of book one tonight! its only five more chapters though i cannot for the life of me remember how it ends lol well it will be seen. so ill finish reviewing this book and organizing the ideas and tomorrow ill get to work on the rest of the pages. might review book two as well but ill see.
finished reviewing the first book! cannot believe i forgot the ending i feel so stupid lol thats like the best part. oh well. a lot of stuff happens and now i have to go in and add a fuck ton of filler cause otherwise i think its too fast-paced. thats a thing for the future though. for now they have been reviewed and must be drafted. or re-drafted. being written in some sort of format would be helpful.
also vaguely organized the rest of the ideas and things. ill probably go through them again - specifically the writing - and put it in some sort of order. things to think about and things to consider.
alright i got a bit through sorting through. had a new idea. cause i have a lot of ideas but some are a bit longer concepts id like to explore. so im doing a seperate sort of series under 'interludes' essentially its stuff written from the point of view of the camera. footage that theyd use however unedited this version may be.
theres currently 8 listed out which is a fair bit! more might be added as i see it but for now i think ive gotten through the oneshots that would fit. so the rest on my writing list should be shorter stuff that i can actually write. ill probably go through it a bit later. oh well! i did a whole lot so im pretty satisfied. im gonna head to bed and hopefully by morning ill start work on the rest of the links on the page.
slept a lot longer than i intended but i also had a whole lot less pain so that might have been why. regardless im up now and should be getting back to work.
i think im going to start on getting the linked pages for joy up now. the main three wont be too difficult - main story just needs html page linked. then text and art which is all going to be kept relatively simple. then theres the other three pages. which will have stuff. not sure what but it will have stuff!
anyway. off to work. todays the last day i can waste on coding before i gotta start writing again.
got through adding links to the main story - had to reformat the links and figure out inline css so it would work out - and then created both the jpg and txt pages. just finished with the txt page which was very simple, just minimal css adjustments. but i got a few links to oneshots up they just need to be finished before they can be just copy and pasted into it. also did a little change on the main page with how the links highlight but im not sure if ill keep it. i like it a lot for now though.
the next thing to do is to format the jpg page which is just my art. luckily i actually have a handful of completed artworks! just need a way to align it that looks nice. that will take some thinking so i might go eat breakfast first then get back to it.
didnt take a break because i decided id quickly upload all the images and put them on the page so i could then decide how i wanted to lay it out. did not take in account how fucked the scaling would be. so i had to fix it so everything at least fit on the page. still havent even decided how i want them to be arranged. well i might have an idea but its less of a format and more of how i want the images grouped. but its fine. everything is on the page. i still havent eaten yet so im going to do that now.
it seems i constantly over-estimate my understanding of code. oh nevermind it does what i wanted to now okay no idea why. anyway trying to figure out the layout and its hard to balance ideas vs attempts to achieve vs not actually knowing what im trying to do lol but whatever. im figuring it out and ill probably do it the same process as the main page. ie get some layout up ; hate it ; plan out new layout ; rebuild from scratch. which is easier this time cause i have something to work off of.
second change is that i had a new idea for the story! in particular with regards to the interludes. or i think ill be labelling them as tapes instead because thats what they are or supposed to be in text. and at the end of each stage in the first book - originally it was supposed to be presented like this ie from the cameras point of view. but of course then i was like okay well this is more like an interlude right? but its at the ends of the chapters and the final chapter theres an additional scene which would just split it up weirdly and i wasnt satisfied. but with some thought i got to the tape idea and instead i think ill take it out of the main story and group it intentionally with the rest of the 'tapes' regardless of if theyre referenced in the text or not.
i just think it works a bit cleaner. as well since that gimmick isnt carried over to the next book. anyway thats just my ideas. ill get to add another little button on the bottom too which is fun! hope i can format it properlu.
hold on...i think ive done something here.
i didnt come up with any sort of plan i just kept moving boxes around and seeing different functions and i think im actually very happy with what ive achieved so far? like it actually looks so good and i did it all myself!!! the main thing to fiddle with is just the sizing but the whole idea is there and im very happy.
its also good that i dont have too much art done yet because i now i can be more intentional about it all. the colors and the borders and how it can lay on the website. the only thing to be added would be an actual comic section? all of 'comic' art is just a single page with multiple panels which works perfectly for the current layout. does not work as well for a multi-page thing. which i dont have many plans for long-form comics except for a halloween one i didnt end up finishing. i might make that like an extra thing ie click another link it has that page - i could also put doodles and such in there since i have halloween costume designs. not sure what id do if i had a serious comic idea ! but thats for future thinking.
actually i have two thoughts. because i could put the extra section as the picture to be clicked. OR it could be a link in the space beneath the second container. which would be less of a secret. OR i could be done both and i seperate the extras / doodles / fun stuff and more serious comics. i will consider this more.
main thing to fiddle with now is sizing. sizing the images to fit right in the boxes but also the boxes themselves. right now theyre a little bigger so you have to scroll the page which i dont like since its only like an inch of space but it also shows that the boxes can be scrolled so i dont know -_-...ill consider it but ill probably ultimately make it a little smaller to fit. ill see if i can change the scroll bar too.
peace and FUCKING love okay. this shit looks so good actually its crazy. im genuinely so stoked i cant believe i put it together !!! sooooo so happy. i ALSO managed to achieve an idea i had. cause i wanted to have the picture be a link but i wanted some sort of way to indicate it and so now when you hover the mouse the border changes color !!! i feel so smart omfg
anyway the very last thing on this page is to get those two pages linked. and i now i realize ive made more work for myself cause i need to format them as well -_- i think ill leave the second link as under construction and just focus on getting the extras up. which to be fair is a single page lol but thats whatever.
of course things can never work out because why when i add a link to my image does the border completely disappear -_- hello !!! come back !!!! and also adding the other link and the whole format fucked up dear lord !!!! hope i can fix this
haha okay i figured it out. i dont know why it worked now but its working so who cares. i was so desperate i literally had reddit open and was about to ask but i persisted and got there in the end godbless.
final thing to do is figuring out the bottom link. the whole format - okay nevermind it was just too short so more words got it down. LOL okay im back on track. so i guess i have to figure out what the link will say? idek if im gonna keep the link in to be honest theres not a massive use for it. i think i wont link anything there for now but if i feel the need to in the future i have the option!
okay i finished putting together the extras art page. i think im gonna keep it strictly for sketches or fully presented refences and the like. i was gonna put the devilz bluez (the only comic i have planned) in there since it was like a side halloween thing but now idk. i mean i still might. to be seen to be seen for now who cares! the format is there and shes looking gorgeousssss
so basically now the main portions are put together. i have main story + side stories + art. so all thats left is interludes + family tree and maybe a reference area but i feel like that might take up too much space so i dont know. REMAINS TO BE SEEN !!! unless i keep it like collages hmmm more curated and less image dumps i guess. that will work better. but also im not sure if the interludes will be placed with a new button which i had originally planned or ill use an already existing one. i think i like that one more but i might have to change the text augh. oh well it will be good in the end.
actually that works out in the end bc theres only three links left so itll be family tree / character sheets + interlude tapes + reference collection ! so im back on track.
took a break and ate dinner, listened to music, worked on a different project. got my eyes away from the screen and considered a few things here and there.
first thing is that i added the second link on the art page. i fixed up the page it linked to and kept it empty but its there regardless. ill add it eventually but i dont want it linked to the under construction page. the second thing is that i decided to go through with finishing the rest of the pages.
im giving myself to the end of the month to have my site 'launched'. which means i want every page up and all the stories on each page justified ie one chapter uploaded (or fully completed ie oneshots). the only exception for pages not being available would be the fifth front page story tab (taken off the front page as of now) and the locked sub-stories on the x story pages. those are fine to be left as they are bc its explicitly future endeavor. so i dont worry about that.
thats the long term plan at least. its really not that much work, especially since most things are drafted to an extent already. but im gonna orient all that tomorrow, for the rest of tonight im focusing on just working on joys page.
next thing i will do is work on the interludes. its just a matter of naming and listing - everything will be crossed out and the first one wont need to be worked on until the end of stage one. thats its whole entire deal. then all thats left is family tree / character sheets - of which i just need joy and hal to be put up. and then reference collection, another of its own sort of thing. that will be done left cause its the least important. also that will probably tie into me organizing a whole lot of other things as well lol so that will be fun. anyway! back to work.
ended up going a completely different direction but it is what it is i suppose! decided to not add in anything and ill just do it as it goes along. makes it a whole lot simpler in the long run. did some minor changes here and there as well. the very last thing to do is family tree and image collection. which i think im going to actually leave off the list for now...i think it goes along with making folders of everything else that i have. thats a whole other project lol so ill put that on a different list. which really means its just the family tree and the character sheets. both of which i have some ideas but still need to be considered on. a matter of format and how i can achieve it.
its been a while since ive done any art but i managed to get a portrait of hal and joy and now theyre up there. its not the cleanest so ill go back and fix it up as i see it but for now its good.
but it does have me wondering how im going to format it. because originally i did want it to be some sort of family tree situation but now im not sure if its heading that way. well the way i think its heading is easier to handle at least. maybe ill change it in the future who knows.
i made the links to their character pages and i have some sort of idea for the end result but ill probably do that tomorrow. it wont take too long since i dont think itll be too complicated and i just need to make a format for the info that will be copied over. ill probably look around at some other sites or online and steal questions as i see fit. either way, ill do it in the morning and then joy page will be formatted so i can re-orient myself and get to start writing again.
awake again. i think im gonna go and finish the final character sheet pages and then take a break to shower before i get to re-orient.
my plan for character sheets is relatively simple. the photo used will be an actual photo just edited as i see fit (got a few ideas in mind but who knows what ill settle on) and rather than relying on others oc information im going to look up medical documents. okay wait change my mind again lol im gonna find like an actual photo of a blank medical document where you write in information then thats whats gonna be added. unsure how the photos i have in mind will come to play but thats my current idea.
managed to get through exactly one medical document. spent more time trying to find a clean copy then actually working. i think im going to get through the other few which were just a yes or no sheet and then upload the files. itll only be for joy but ill get to see how it works uploaded. i sort of maybe have an idea but really idk. whatever i end up on ill be able to copy over to format for hal i think so its whatever.
didnt finish but i took a break anyway and got thinking. i had a few problems with lay-out + adding information + visibility of documents. but i think i have something that could work but also be updated as the timeline progresses. hopefully this works out.
took a lot of fiddling around but i have the start of something. i need to fix images and such but thats a whole other issue. im gonna finish aligning everything and then probably take another break but this time i think i want to start working on something else lol i think i can justify it because this page is technically formatted just needs the rest of the content so oh well.
well its not good. but its not nothing so i guess it was a success. ill come back to it later. the next thing to do is start writing. or plan what i should write i guess. need to re-organize my notes and so on.
youre never gonna believe but i changed my mind again. originally when i was setting up the front page stories i chose a whole handful because i wanted to have my site feel a little more full. except now ive decided i should probably be patient and be reasonable. im only going to focus on getting up the ones that have been drafted and need to be edited. my writing process dictates that i should always re-write something at least once before i can label it as presentable. this just makes the process easier. it also works better overall bc my stories are all in their respective files except for 'working on'...but i dont just want to work on those. and what dictates what should be worked on?
inside the files its split into 'planning' 'drafting' and 'rewriting' - i think ill delete all the rewriting files and anything that was in there can be put in the 'working on' instead. that feels like a better process.
so now it leaves me with less things to work on for the month so i should be able to do more. theres three oneshots and one chapter of the front page stories - the X stories are debatable bc their sites need to be formatted first but i might do it as theyre complete ie now that joy is almost done ill add the oneshots + chapter to the to do list. once avaline gets finished (hopefully joy has been done at that point) then i get to work on those stories. so on and so forth.
went through and cleaned everything up. sorted through my to do list to put together some actual sort of plan.
i listed out everything that needs to be done for joys page which is just the character sheets. i went back and did some minor tweaking to size so its a little nicer, and i listed out everything that would need to be on the page. which for the sake of simplicity is only three parts. a 'photo', a descriptive quote, and a file of relevant documents. the idea is that this will be updated as the story and timeline progress, all the way until the finale. i dont think theres any more documents that need to added so its just a matter of filling them in. the 'photo' and the quote will take a bit of planning but again. matter of completion.
once thats all put together thats the last thing to do on that page and i can get to working on the next one.
the other half of it is the writing. re-sorted all the files and figured out what i had to do. its not a whole lot and again - everything had already been drafted - so really just a matter of page by page rewriting. i think ill try to start on one of them tonight and see how it goes.
took a break. im going to start writing soon but theres a few things i want to do first.
i updated the character page a little more but its still rough. i redid joys portrait and its better but still not great. gonna have to take some time to fix that up.
i also got a comment on an old writing account which was probably the first one i had that actually got traction and really set me up for posting online. i went off to do other things a while ago but i still feel guilty because a lot of the work was left undone. ive moved it all here now and have gone through the stuff and intergrated it into my current work. which im happy with. i wasnt planning on ever going back to there again but i think i will actually - not to post but just to update and link this site.
most of my writing parallels content-wise and if anyone would like what i write it would be the people who explicitly said they liked what i write LOL
its nice to think about because it sort of gives me some closure. a whole circle kind of way. but it also does get me thinking if i should start posting on tumblr again! i mean while my goal was to limit social media i dont need to outright reject it. and also because i was thinking that my site is unforunately not mobile friendly in any sense of the word haha so unless i can get it like that - i should have avenues for accessibility.
anyway! it gives me a goal to work towards. i think ill make the post at the end of the month when i have something to show for it - a main appeal would be my characters i guess? that thought makes me nervous but i only had a handful of followers which would mean even less people would care about my original characters! that sounds bad in a way but i never like anything getting too popular. ive seen too many horror stories with that.
regardless i have a goal to work towards so thats nice. ill look into revamping my tumblr and also see about making my site more mobile friendly.
ah lord. im impatient as ive always been and went off to make a post already LOL oh well its up there now ! i didnt link my site or nothing just mentioned i was doing original work now. so thats nice. a little bit of closure. that feels sappy man i wrote incest porn LMAO anyway who cares i did that and then i added a comissions page to my site just for fun. id like to get one just to say ive done it but its like people paying for my music - not something i can make a living off of. nor do i want to. but thats okay ! its up there now.
also went to look at making my site mobile friendly and immediately decided it was impossible so now im committed to tumblr it seems. ill set up my site in a little bit. theres something else i want to work on first.
and even with all that i still havent written anything -_-
had to write that song out omfg it was so hard. i mean the lyrics popped straight into my head so i had two verses and a chorus in like five minutes with maybe two lines i had to think about. but the chords were not being very kind to me. anyway i got it done and its up so thats fine. i think i am going to say im done for the night though, i did do a lot i guess! a while i didnt write i did make a new plan so i guess it worked out. tomorrow what i have to do is revamping my tumblr + actually for real writing + final additions to joy page. godbless.
im awake again. theres three thing i can do today; writing, finishing joys character sheets, revamping tumblr.
i think i should start on writing first so at least something is complete. did some brief calculations and all i need to do is two or three pages a day. so i think ill do that in the morning before i start on anything else so its just out the way and then ill be able to go off to do whatever else it is i need to do. ill go eat first and then hopefully i can get through it.
okay well i didnt get through it. LMAOOOOO i really did nothing all day i just stared at the screen and wrote like half a sentence. i think its cause i havent really written prose for a few months so jumping into a project that in my mind has to be 'good' is very discouraging. so i gotta ease myself back to writing. so i think instead im gonna start working on some sort of side story - maybe for joy bc i have a few extra ideas that i need to add into notes but im not sure. i think im gonna have a shower then see how i feel about it.
okay well instead of showering i started writing and this is probably the worst thing ive ever drafted LOL...but you know what its neccessary.
basically im rewriting the entire text, im not editing whats already there. so its like ill take one sentence and rewrite it out and usually add in information and backstory whatever else. well i think ive got through like a paragraph or so and its already turned into a page lol...but it means im working right at least!
this story is like. nearly two years old i think and so is the other oneshot im supposed to work on. maybe even a bit older. anyway the point is all these stories are old and not only is the writing being updated but so is characters - while the plot at its core is kept the same, the characters themselves are expanded and have new motivations and new sort of perceptions. which also plays into a different approach of a backstory or textual explation. so im doing it from the ground up but rather than building off the base im completely rebuilding the base. this means going through the ugly draft phase again before i can actually get to writing it out better. a little relieving because it means its okay if it sucks real bad.
on the same hand its a bit annoying because it also means itll take even more time to write but i have the whole month so i shouldnt be completely stressing out about this. hopefully with this new mindset im able to get through more of it in the next couple days.
okay i was gonna take a break earlier cause i had just got over a page but i decided to finish out the scene since it wasnt long. it was about two or three starting paragraphs and it was connected to the next scene but i decided to add a break because it was logner now. so it means i went from having to rewrite six scenes and seven pages....to having six scenes and seven pages left...
but thats okay. its a whole lot more than i got done this morning ! got the beginning of some backstory and the set-up for the rest.
i realize im probably also going to need to make little scene break markers. should i have a general one or make story specific? idk ill have to see. maybe ill make a general one and then for longer stories i might get a new one for that
either way i feel better now and i should figure out what i need to do next
havent actually done anything yet lol but i did go through and do some edits i wanted to make to some pictures. finished joys character page ! its simple but it does what it needs to do so thats okay. so now the final thing to do for joys page is to finish hals character sheet and then i think thats really it. outside of finishing getting up chapter + side stories but thats a different thing. at least i dont need to re-format hals page at all ! so its just a matter of putting together what i need. which is just his picture (augh) the quote and the medical documents. which wont take much time at all since he has less info that can be available. quote is also easy so its just the picture. i think ill do the same method that i did with joy though so hopefully i can get through it lol...
okay i started on getting hals picture done and its going horribly so i think ill leave it for tomorrow. im gonna have to redo or keep editing joys picture cause im not happy with it lol gotta change my methods or whatever. but ill work on that tomorrow i think im done for today. got the start of something at least so hopefully ill be able to do more tomorrow. anyway. goodnight !
i lied and i kept working on the photos...i had a new sort of idea so i edited and thought it looked fine then i started reworking hals again but then the style was different and he looked a lot less realistic which is fine but then i had to re-do joy to match hals and i think i do like it but still needs to be adjusted of course. at the very least i got to add in hals page so tomorrow i can do the quote and documents and adjust pictures as i see fit. better than having to do it all from the ground up ! no different then me reviewing pages and writing to do minor edits here and there. well anyway i think i am actually done for today though. ill pick it up tomorrow etc etc
awake and up and i have some ideas. not sure if ill get to work now or eat / shower first.
showered and ate so now im gonna get back to work. things to do being finishing joy page + continue writing + work on revamping tumblr. tumblr is like the least important thing to do so i dont really care if i dont get to it. for the writing i think im gonna aim to have everything initially first drafted again by feb 15...so i can spend the second half of the month doing another round of edits. except now im sort of thinking - everything uploaded here is technically drafts and i like rewriting things as i see fit. but if i update something how am i going to show thats its been updated (in regards to newly posted work) but i think i might have an idea.
theres nothing that i have for each story to indicate when it was written. but i could add like a little footer at the end of each story and have a date there instead. ill have to see how it looks
also ow i just got hiccups and while my chest is mainly fine theres still pain here and there. this is not helping me. thank got its right now and not in the worst of it i actually would have lost it.
okay added it in and i like the concept but ill still need to work out a few of the minor details. thats fine though because the start of it is there. and i feel a bit better because i can always go back and update and then the date is just as the bottom to check. i think i kind of want to do like a drop down menu of information but im just not sure where it would be placed on the file lol well thats for future consideration. anyway i did what i could so i think im going to quickly redo the character portraits just so i can have them up and then have some time while a write so the next time i come back to work on hals character sheet ill have somewhat fresh eyes and can hopefully do final edits.
already re-did the portraits and theyre looking a lot better. i think theres just an edit here or there but overall im actually happy with how it turned out. ill leave the last bit of editing for later and im gonna go start writing now. gonna knock out at least one page.
soooo none of that happened. im not sure why lol i need to focus i swear but its not even like me sitting down and staring at the screen and not being able to start. ive just been so distracted. i dont even get to where i need to be...augh.
i think im gonna get through with hals documents - not worry about editing the pictures, just getting the final sort of non-writing content. then im going to start on writing the joy oneshots. just cause i want to work on something shorter and ill use my write track little thing so i can get through it.
finished the docs and then ate some food. the final thing to do is add in the quote. which i should do. and i am going to do right now.
after that im just gonna work on some joy oneshots. except i think im gonna have to reconsider what i had chosen bc i gotta take in account the plot and spoilers etc...but also the art i have indicates spoilers too so i guess its whatever LOL idk ill get to it and see where i end up.
peace and love i got through it. so that means joys page is essentially finished !! of course i still need to add in the first chapter and some oneshots etc etc but everything that needs to be there is there. it also means that now i have to move on and do it from the beginning to work on the avaline page lol...oh shit i dont even have ANY art of avaline omfg...okay i might skip over to work on caroline idk. i think having these pages up are secondary in the grand scheme but just as long as i have one page up lol...okayyy now im gonna work on oneshots :p
okay decided not to add in any oneshots just yet. i feel like i really do need to establish the story first. the art is fine because its art so whatever. it gives a little glimpse but nothing more than that. but i think the oneshots need to be seperated into years and such...so ill have to go do that lol...
i think im gonna spend some time re-organizing my files and adding in notes and splitting things into dates as much as i can. then ill probably look into revamping my tumblr.
the thing is originally i was gonna finish getting up the rest of my entire site but im really impatient lol i think the very least im just going to get joy chapter one re-written. thats all i need.
okay started working and putting together a timeline. mainly focused on breaking down the months for the first story bc thats fully planned out + i got the plot breakdown list for quick reference. so i sort of have exact months with important events pinned down and everything else to fit around that. then for the rest i just isolated major year events to list things out and broke the timeline into three sections. everything revolves around this.
but the thing is ive kinda only really put together the first story. i mean i have the second story but i havent gone over it again and idk what the hell is gonna happen with the third lol
okay well i completely restructured the story....BUT ITS WORKING OUT !!! its more fleshed out now. so i get work in newer stuff that i want. but also omfg...theres a lot of shit im realizing i have to do ...
i think i should probably break things up again and just focus on what its immediately important ie the first story. since - again - its just the first story theres not much to be 'added' to it in regards to side stories. that will all come in once its done and the dust has settled.
so really i do just gotta focus on the first story and even more than that just the first stage. cause i got tapes and stuff to work into it as well...oh whatever. peace and love ill get into it eventually.
its midnight so i might go to bed or i might start work on my tumblr idk...but i got the start of something at the very least.
i gotta re-focus for real...i keep fucking around....i think im gonna work on revamping my tumblr first. im not gonna get into doing the next pages yet and instead just focus on working on joy. which means getting the tumblr up and then writing the chapter + reorganizing plot and content...i have a ton of new ideas i gotta work into.
okay spent basically all day doing nothing but i did get some stuff done. tumblrs are up and i made the post ! so now i just gotta...start writing LOL i mean yeah thats about it. outside of maybe figuring out what i should be posting on tumblr but that might be promo stuff honestly. but again. promo for finished writing lol
but its also kind of like...idk art posts. i wanted to make covers for stuff. idk !!!! i just gotta start getting through things. i should honestly probably just not out the PFS chapter so that way i just have oneshots and joy. okay i should re-organize my to do list. again. or i might shower and eat first. augh so much to do.
okay change my mind im committing to finishing the PFS chapter. its just gotta be written and then ill go back and to a quick re-write and then ill figure out what to work on next. but im comitting to that for real !!!
took a break for a while and then ate and showered. but i finally started writing again! got through one page and theres only six more to go lol im gonna try to get through as much as possible tonight. except now im sort of doubting plot events -_- or more like the order. idk theres only thing that happens that i dont rlly like so...idk i should go change it
took a break for a while. sort of put together my thoughts. ive re-bulleted the whole thing and sort of have a better grasp on the characters so i think its a little more interesting now. i should get to drafting it out though im really gonna have to go back to the beginning to change the whole thing. and also the rest of the whole series bc omfg. but thats a future problem, i just gotta get through the basics first.
didnt quite do what i was supposed to but i got through something at least! set up my tumblr and got an intro + first post up :) i think ill be using it for like. sneak peaks of stories. little snippets and doodles. sort of maybe have a goal as well for the stories. i think for the longer ones ill be working one at a time ie getting through one section before maybe adding in something new to the mix. oneshots are whatever. anyway got that together. not sure what ill do now :p
okay i put a few more things up on tumblr. i sort of know what i want to do with it as of short form content goes. i have some practice w it to with a previous account i started which ended up getting terminated cause i kept showing my tits lol
but! its something. i can queue up a ton of posts and not feel as bad about working slow on the site. so ill probably re-organize what i need to do tomorrow with a whole bunch of things but thats fine.
re-organized a few things last night and now i feel better abt what i need to do.
i also had time last night to think abt jenny and that whole situation and i think i finally have some sort of plot going on! i really just had to develop the alien side of things and it all fell into place. still a lot to be added but the foundation is there so thats nice.
what im gonna try to do is to sketch out a little idea and write a oneshot. i wanna try to do that every day for a different x project - eventually sketches will be finished and oneshot snippets will be expanded upon. but then i also want to do an actual writing snippet but more general concept. and then two short form ideas. so thats four things to post in a day which is kind of a lot but itll get me established!
so yeah i think thats what ill do first of all and then organize some files and then i have a choice of bulleting or writing but ill probably do a little mix of both. peace and love.
peace and love i got a little doodle out. it was a bit harder bc it was avaline and johanna and i havent drawn them at least in a current iteration. so i had to do a little character sketch. and then i decided to choose to have them in the worst pose ever with two of the main things i cant draw; side profiles and kissing...i sort of managed in the end so its whatever !!!
anyway i got that out so thats good. ill queue up the next two short concept posts and then ill leave the longer one for tonight. i think rn im gonna get breakfast and then shower and then ill get into organizing some files before i write anything. i finished carolines last night which was nice so im gonna work on avalines today bc it should be relatively simple. ill leave the other two for the next days as i do their little sketch. i think that sounds good !
ate and showered and developed jenny a bit further ! so im excited to see how that turns out. now i kind of want to go back to my archived stories and see if i can impliment any of them into anything im doing but i think i should get a hold of these stories first lol
okay well i fucked around as much as i could. organized a few more things here and there. the only really thing to do is just get back into writing. which honestly should not be too bad. well i say that and then i dont want to do anything ever but i have my list of things to get through. im not entirely sure where i should start though like if i should work on longer projects or ones that i know need to have more work into them or ones to finish first so that theres at least something up...idk
im gonna go eat lunch then start figuring something out.
took a little break and played some music but im getting back into it. decided to use a wheel and it gave me a story i havent worked on at all. but ive read over the first page and so far its pretty straight forward. the character thought process is still the same and theres not like major backstory to add into it. i changed a minor detail or two but that was easy. i think the later half gets a bit rushed so that will need to fleshed out but thats fine.
cause i realized a big struggle with these current stories is that theyre drafted but theres still major upheavels to be made. characters or plot has changed - unlike my other newer stuff which is pretty grounded in itself. so instead of working and editing or whatever im just going over it and focusing on writing up a new draft that reflects the current iteration better. so then i can start writing and getting it to a better version using something thats actually workable.
its a good process to have bc i realize that once its all drafted then i can start working on drafting future stuff while i write these ones and the process doesnt clash. cause it is a different process lol but thats whatever.
sort of got through a oneshot. i added in a few scenes here and there and wrote some notes but its all just bullet points. i think its fine though. i guess its changed from pre-writing to just adding in extra notes to fix scenes lol but thats easier to manage so its fine. ill probably start actually writing tonight but ill try to get through the rest here
got through two more! granted i had already been working on those lol but i think im gonna keep on doing these until its night then ill start writing whatever ive done. so i dont have to finish getting through all of these today but i can get through it as i need to. eventually once its all done i can switch over to start bulleting unplanned stories. and then get into drafting. so on and so forth
regardless making some sort of progress so thats good.
got through a lot more than i thought i was going to get through actually. and i enjoyed it for the most part ! i forget how good the stories can be when i make them better lol but theres two chapters + a oneshot left to do notes on and then thats it. except the oneshot is already like halfway done and idk about the chapters but oh shit wait.
goddammit i just checked and they are written lol okay well it might make things easier idk. ill do it as i did the other ones. anyway yeah i probably will just knock the rest of it out tonight just cause i can.
oh wait i also have to do notes for joy but x projects are different so thats whatever. but other than that...yeah i guess its fine. getting through it at least.
okay well i think i got through it all ? i mean i might make some more changes or write more notes as i get to the last ones i did but like for the most part i got through it. so now the next step is completely rewriting everything so on and so forth. i think ill get another little thing up on my tumblr first then go eat dinner + shower then ill get in bed and start writing for real. actually wait hold on. ok i think im adding another step to this thing...or not im kind of confused now -_- ... well maybe not since i did add the new scenes in.
cause when i sit down to write i might just write out the missing scenes ? so its just one full draft ? and then that means everything is put into Rewrite and its fine because all the things i need to add are listed out or its pretty much the same plot just writing needs to be better. augh now im doubting myself cause i dont want to say i have to do less work and then it turns out i have to do more work.
okay whatever its fine im comitting to having the rest being under re-writing so its fine. im gonna re-do a oneshot though bc i got lazy w it so i need to basically re-bullet the entire thing lol thats fine.
okay had to go eat first and by then it was a bit late so i want to shower but first i decided to finish but the longer tumblr post which was just a little rewrite of something i wrote. omfg why did that take so long...and im still not happy with it but its whatever. i got it up and its not horrible. i didnt get to finish the oneshot rebullet either bc im gonna have to do the entire thing from scratch and thats like six pages so instead im gonna go shower now then come back to finish that and then go off to start drafting.
had my shower then tried to rebullet the last oneshot but it was taking a while. and it kept taking a while. and now ive completely deviated off the original plot bc characters are so different so idk how it ends lol
i lied i know how it ends. i sort of used the original ending but changed a few details. now the problem is taking from where i am in the story to that ending...
didnt write last night cause i just went straight to bed which is fine. but i got up today and went to go do the sketch but i dont really have any ideas...i mean i sort of do i guess. maybe its cause i tried doing jenny instead of joy lol
well im going to look at my joy idea list bc i just remembered i had that. okay i found some sort of idea let me sketch it out...hopefully it goes better this time lol
actually did go better! got the sketch but since i had no oneshots already written out for joy + this art was intended JUST as art...i took a quote from the main story. did a little bit of editing lol anyway i think its not that bad.
anyway im gonna queue up the next posts for today. then i think i will work on joy for a little bit. i gotta start adding in the extra sort of scenes. little notes etc so i can then start drafting then rewriting...
okay getting back to it! ive already gone through it once and added in comments to existing scenes...the main goal right now is to add in-between scenes or maybe make the beginning of some parts longer. i might start pinning down events with even more specific dates...
okay got distracted. had to take a break with some other shit i literally made it through like 3 pages of the first chapter omfg...but thats fine. i sort of know how im doing it now at least ! got a plan in works. just gotta get through the rest. idk if ill finish this chapter and then go on to do something else or keep working on the chapters...idk ill see when i get there
it took probably way longer than it should have to get through one chapter. in good news i got through the chapter and dear lord did i go through it. i basically went step by step and laid out dates for each event. i even used a calender from 1994 to plan it out omfg...
but i really solidified the timeline and i feel a lot better for it! it feels more cohesive now rather than just vaguely slapped together. now i just gotta do that a dozen more time...well okay as of right now im only focusing on stage one which is four chapters. so i got three more to get through. but im a lot happier with this chapter now. i think there was only one more scene added in actually the rest was just heavily expanded on lol
took a break to eat lunch cause i was starvinggg and now im back.
i think what ill do actually, cause originally i was going to work on bulleting a few things but i think ill leave that for tomorrow. im gonna keep on and try to finish adding the rest of these notes. i have a oneshot from yesterday i didnt finish + three chapters of joy ... so that tonight i can actually start drafting for real. i think ill try to get that oneshot done but i think the reason i didnt finish was cause i changed a whole bunch of lead up so now its just all new plot. but i did have the end! so its just a matter of fill in the blanks. anyway thats all
sort of kind of got through the oneshot. wrote out a few ideas but its to the point where whenever i start drafting ill just figure it out then lol so thats fine. but i did start on the next chapter of joy and oh man it was a struggle
cause the first couple scenes were really not that bad it was just...boring i think. i dont know well more like i wasnt sure how to fit in new ideas in between. i ended up completely re-arranging them and putting them into an entirely new setting and it works so much better but still...i also ended up cutting up the dialogue and sort of inserting it into different parts rather than one continious conversation and i love that.
but in re-arranging the events i ended up connecting them to later stuff so much better. i added little plot details and its honestly great. i still have a few pages left so ill have to get through it and then plot it out on the calender. yipeee
IM STILL ON CHAPTER TWO...ive bulleted out multiple new scenes and pages omfg...wait actually i have an idea how i can end this. and also connect it to the next chapter wait im inspired. okay complaining cancelled i have to get back to work.
progress cancelled bc now i need to re-figure out my timeline. i need to space out some events for real...which is annoying cause the next two stages all this shit happens in like three months omfg but its fine. i might have something i think. hopefully.
took a break from adding notes to joy and wrote out a little smth for my tumblr. i actually like this one a lot so thats good. also made a post sort of engagement baiting lol but if it flops im gonna be embarressed and delete it.
anyway...break for dinner and a shower and then im getting into bed and finally starting on the drafting !! its just filling in the scenes that arent drafted yet so hopefully wont be too crazy lol
showered, ate dinner, listened to music and now im here. i should start drafting except now im kind of considering changing the entire set up of one of the oneshots lol...well maybe not entirely idk ill have to read it.
ended up just going to sleep last night bc i was tired. not sure exactly what ill do today but i have a new sort of format for my x project daily oneshots. i bulleted the one for today so i have to go write that then ill eat and shower and figure out how i want to start getting through it for real...
omfg...why did that take so long. anyway i wrote it then didnt know how to format it + didnt want to edit then took a break to go eat and stress out and listen to music. was going to shower but decided to try to doodle one of the scenes and just do like a little snippet of the oneshot like for the others ones. but then it was hard. and i failed. so i redid it. and i failed. then i was going to give up but i kept working at it and got a halfway decent sketch.
then it took a while to finish editing like only two paragraphs but they were long paragraphs. but i did it and i posted it and now its done i guess. im gonna have a shower and then i was gonna re-organize my to do list for a bit and figure out how i should work on things. maybe take more notes on joy and get through the next chapters and best case i also get to some drafting too lol...
alright i finally got around to re-organizing my to do list. got a bunch of interaction on tumblr! so thats good. adding to the ecosystem lol
but the way im sort of setting it up now - three stages of Planning / Drafting / Rewriting - planning is very simple just getting the basics down. no need to over-complicate it! more stuff can be added later.
the main sort of portion is the drafting. bc ive realized everything im doing still falls under drafting just like micro-stages. and theres no Full Proof way to pin that down if im being honest. it depends on the story and the situation. so i might draft something multiple times over and over again but eventually ill get the final stage - which is rewriting. this stage is basically as it says. once the draft is there start to finish with no more scenes that needs to be added; rewrite it all from the beginning. and then thats basically it.
it feels a lot simpler when its written out like that. but basically i can just have it like that and continue it. like that. lol anyway now i can just do whatever i guess !
tried working but i got distracted. sort of whatever. i have a new game up since i got a handful of followers. hopefully it works out but who knows! hope people vote at least lol i mean i tagged it so i feel like if random people see it in the tags they might just click anyway...oh well.
im gonna eat dinner and shower then maybe try to start working. probably just put everything into a wheel and see whatever i get. might work. might not work. augh...
havent done much today. i drew here and there but outside of that i havent written anything at all. i think i do want to write though...and you know what thats what im going to do. not gonna shower bc thats gonna make me sleepy but i AM gonna drink. which is also going to make me sleepy but hopefully i can get through SOMETHING !!!!
okay have my delicious drink. and i decided to use the wheel and its a oneshot to finish drafting. theres six scenes in total of varying lengths to be added in. this was also the one i sort of wanted to work on! mainly bc of the low scene count. anyway idk if ill do all of them but im hashtag comitting now...
well i got through one scene and finished off my drink. and wrote a little tumblr post. bc i felt like it lol...not at all related to current events....anyway.
i think im just gonna go page by page for whatever im writing cause not hashtag committed but i am to writing so thats fine..
okay nevermind i got a new drink and now i think i have a new...idea...for now to draft lol. im just gonna go page by page when i get to it. so for this oneshot its 11 pages and i went through two. but i didnt just add in the new parts of the scene i did basically take out the extra parts of the scene that i was going to take out. so it reads smoother. or semi smoother lol...as smooth as it can be. but ill do it for everything and basically just analyze scene by scene so i can see if new stuff needs to be considered or what changes could be made...and if theres a longer scene then i just need to write out a page. okay godbless im doing it now...
lol i havent even been writing or nothing...ive just been making posts on tumblr that im gonna have to delete. but i did get the next story and opened it and i didnt want to bc i thought i was gonna change plot but i think its fine. or i might not be sober and just saying things but i think its fine. only three more scenes to add in too...
i lied im going to completely re-bullet it and change the plot from the beginning lol...its for the best...but not for tonight i think im just gonna lay down now tbh goodbyeee hopefully now at least i can get through tomorrow..
well it is tomorrow and i am awake ! tried to do some stuff and got some other stuff done so its whatever. i think im gonna go through and completely re-bullet puppylove first so then i can start writing. page by page etc...
okay well i took a break to eat bc i was hungry and then i came back and plotted some stuff out. so now i think ill just put it to the wheel and do the page by page thing...hopefully getting some more progress. i mean ill def have to re-do notes once its drafted but thats just the process. ill shower first then get into that.
showered and listened to music for a bit and now i think im gonna get back into it except ive run into a problem. just got an ask which i mean. FINALLY !!!! i want interaction. except im realizing that how im currently aligned its more focused on personal fantasy rather outside experience ie fandom shipping. which is fine but now i have girls wanting me to sex talk to them ummm im a fraud i dont even jack off...anyway i do think its kind of funny im assigned dom like ok yeah i see it.
oh god this is so embarressing im trying to answer this but i never use 'me' or 'i'...like very very rarely. even when i talk abt myself i still use 'you' bc thats natural. anyway i need someone to come and kill me with rocks but thats whatever.
was stressing over it for way too long and it doesnt matter. theres dozens of people who get horny asks and answer them with mediocre one liners im literally fine. okay whatever im closing it and then going to work on writing again for reallll just wanna get a few pages out of the way...
and i think ill do it all ie like go down the list on the wheel. so rather then keeping the names up - once i finish at least a page ill take it off and keep going until i gotta reset it..
after literally forever i finally sat down and wrote out the rest of this page omfg...was not even difficult at all im just a little bitch lol but i got through it and i think i wanna shower then get a drink
oh my god??? actually i dont know why im acting surprised the next thing i got on the wheel was to work on SB...and not writing but drafting ! woaw...i havent worked on sb is soooo long oh my god i dont remember why i stopped and i dont even know what the next part was lol actually wait it might have been cause i had to write out new scenes. but im already doing new scenes so it should be okay hopefully. yippeee...
actually i kind of sort of just want to work on sb now ummm .... i might go ahead and just do that. cause i forgot how the later re-writing was not too bad i dont think...i might just over-view what i got and go from there for real ? ummm okay i think i gotta shower first tho lol
okay i still havent showered but i HAVE been working on sb...got through reading the rest of act four and added some notes. for the most part itll be kept as is and i think i only added like one scene per chapter. but also i read a bit of the re-written portions and omfg...i was doing something there i cant even lie. but anyway i think im pretty happy with the rest except for like the interlude but thats whatever. so theres just two acts left with the bulk of what New Scenes need to be added to go in there. i think im gonna get a drink and then just start on it.
okay actually ive been making good progress lol...there was less then i thought id have to add! or maybe its jsut cause its been a while idk...but i got through act 5 and now im on the final act...theres at least one chapter which needs a whole lot more work but overall shes been good to me.
okay i kind of sort of got through the rest ??? it was not as bad as i thought it was so thats nice at least. and i feel a little better about writing and drafting and everything...so i can just go do it ! lol.
kind of didnt expect to get through all of it tonight so idk if ill try to do more or not...i feel like i should but i think ill just go listen to music for a bit and then probably sleep.
got up a bit early just cause i felt like it. gonna work on just drafting ie put it to the wheel and im doing that for a bit...did charge my phone last night so hopefully ill put it away and be able to focus lol
got through three scenes for three stories...nothing too crazy just a handful of paragraphs but its progress so i dont care. theres only three more to get through with drafting but im sleepy now so im going to lie down again instead. ill get up again whenever to get through the rest..
awake again! im gonna eat breakfast then get to finishing up this current round of drafts. hopefully writing a little more or something like that. so gonna get into it!
ate breakfast and i was going to shower but i decided to continue. on the very last thing to draft a little of and then it means i got through everything at least once...hashtag progress. i think after that im gonna look at a different project for a little bit of consideration...perhaps a little bit of work lol hopefully i wont get distracted in working on it though. but i mean if i just focus on drafting it should be too bad hmmm
finished getting through a little bit of all the oneshots and also remembered my other project WASNT done being bulleted..most of it was but i had skipped over the stories that were a bit longer so i could do them later. i think im just gonna work on getting through one of the collectiosn. theres four left to do for that.
so ill shower, bullet the handful of oneshots in that collection. then...im not sure ! maybe ill write smth short for my tumblr or work on the k project
took longer than it should have but i finished bulleting one collection...wrote a few more things for tumblr in between. i think im gonna bullet the k project so i have some sort of idea for that. then i might start drafting again i think !
got some sort of plan out for the k project which is nice. i think the next thing to do is just to start drafting ! wanna see if i get some more progress done lol..
took a break to listen to music and eat a bit. but then got back to drafting i finished the first chapter of joy ! just needs to be rewritten. so progress def being made.
theres six stories left to get through...i think im gonna eat smth - get through three - shower - then get through the last three ? then idk what after that. actually wait changed my mind cause two of the things on there werent bulleting so im gonna take them off. so just four things to do. okayyyy
ended up not doing any of that but i DID make major progress with joy and instead im gonna work on bulleting the story and taking more notes. i have a ton of new information to add which is exciting.
worked a little bit on joy chapters last night and then a little more this morning. for the most part ive got it laid out i think. i finished the second chapter and it took a while re-organizing the events for the third and fourth bc theres a lot of space between the months. but i pinned down some defining events and all that really needs to be done is getting the in-between specifics.
i think im gonna shower first then start bulleting the next compiliation of the other project and then get back into drafting. hopefully with a little more progress. and also i want to start re-reading SB so i can see where shes at for real...thats the plan !
and they terminated my tumblr account -_- .... im actually incredibly annoyed. not even cause i was just about to get 100 followers again but because all my sideblogs with my image archives were deleted. thats incredibly fucking annoying.
okay well i made up my new blog so thats whatever. im just gonna focus on building up my archive again. theres one specific account i really liked - and i immediately found them peace and has been restored. theres a few related blogs to them but ill find them eventually hashtag natural progress or whatevre. anyway i dont feel as bad anymore so im gonna go shower and continue as i was supposed to continue
i really didnt get much done last night but its fine cause it was a fucked up day. i did spend a lot more time on tumblr though and have gotten my account back to where i sort of want it to be. i think what im going to do is remake my nsfw but keep it strictly to text and ill see how that goes. but i will also make an entirely new tumblr so if it gets termed the rest of my sideblogs arent at risk...
finally got to work and im back to organizing joy. went back to chapter three and plotted out a few more events for the in-between to make it run smoother. so now i have to bullet it all out and then theres just chap 4 to plot and bullet. i think what im gonna do is also go back to chap 2 and re-sort the draft so far bc it was written but majorly cut up and scenes have changed. i mean i might just delete it all and make myself redraft it but lol its fine though because itll make drafting easier. i think im gonna eat first and then continue on that - then get to bulleting the other project bc theres only two collections left for that - then its just drafting and writing as i so desire...could also set up the new tumblr but idk
did a little bit but didnt quite finish anything. i should probably get back to drafting i think. i think one of the oneshots was almost done so i might just open it and see if i can knock the rest of it out just to have it completed...maybe sb too since there was only two sections left to draft for that and both were pretty short i think. ughhhh so much to work on....so much to do...augh
actually i think i want to work on setting up joys tumblr...except wtf am i gonna post there ummm like i need a consistent source of content but joy is so specific that im sort of like...idk. i cant even post just random sketches cause hashtag explicit...unless i do hmm
augh but whats gonna happen is im gonna post stuff and be so excited and happy and then no ones gonna give a shitttt which is fair but still :( ... idk ill think about it
ended up not writing at all but i DID draw my new little joytoy image...im actually very pleased w how it came out lol it took a while but she looks good !!! hopefully shes intriguing enough for the tumblr girlies lol ... i think now though im gonna set up my joy blog bc i hit post limit so im struggling ngl...but its for the best bc ill set up the blog and well mainly just need my pinned post lol but anywayyyy
well i ended up making a tag system and going through everything so thats good. i was gonna go back to working on joy ie bulleting + maybe start rewriting but im just waiting for my post limit to be over lol...i just want to upload my art .... i think im gonna draw something else while though ...
tried to get up and post some more art bc i got nooo interactions...which is to be expected but still lol was gonna make some more art but idkkk i dont have many ideas...which sucks :( well i have a few ideas but idk i feel like i need some sort of structure to base off of. oh well. i think im gonna continue bulleting / adding notes and then see where i go from there. i might start re-writing the first chapter too idk
had a shower and decided to actually keep working on my drawing instead and omfg it was difficult but i finally got an actually good sketch. so im just gonna go back and clean all the lines then add the solid colors and i can post it ! and also for as much as im like oh noooo no one cares :( ... well now i got MORE art my characters so really where is my loss..im happy with what im making myself !!!
augh...straight up not doing anything. im just. bleh. i rlly need to work on joy but theres so much to do i want short form stuff...but i cant even upload oneshots bc spoiler reasons oh what if i died....i should work on the other projects but i dont want tooooo aughhh ... NO ONE CARES !!!!!!!!
nevermind i got one like on my art ^_^ im gonna go do a oneshot !! ill keep it relatively simple / spoiler free but tumblr is less 'important' so i feel fine having some stuff out of order. if anything then in the future i can tag dates / make a page for oneshots in order
ended up not writing yet but i have the oneshot i want to do + i decided to do a little valentines sketch for joy instead. its simple but cute so idk ! ... anyway im gonna eat then ill get to drafting i think
ok well i got up later. sort of. i havent even gotten up yet im still in bed lol but i did write out the joy oneshot ! it was alright. i think im gonna go eat breakfast and maybe shower idk but then ill come back and edit it a bit and just get it posted..and then maybe ill set up the new account . or work on other tumblrs bc i got more stuff written or can be written for them lol idk...
did eat, didnt shower, listened to music and then drew another thing...its alright. not as convinced with it as my other ones but im running out of hashtag ideas...think im gonna eat again and then probably start editing the oneshot..? idk
physically exhuasted and havent done shit. but i am going to do shit. now. im gonna try to start rewriting joy chapter...its just one scene which is four pages but its just one scene for real...cause once this chapters written then i can just upload it. thats crazy.
sort of started but then i hated it. i guess its cause in my brain im like oh. i HAVE to make this good bc this is what needs to be published like omfg no...i think what im gonna think abt instead is getting the entire thing drafted and subsequently re-written from that...ohhh wait this is like the second draft of SB where it was better but still absolute trash and thats whats currently being re-written okayyy girlie i see you...anyway i dont think im continuing tonight IM SORRY !!!!! but i think i will continue tomorrow. cause i have things to do
i also re-organized how i have the oneshots. i think from now on im gonna like just choose one at random and write it regardless of canon order. and then not worry abt editing or nothing bc i can do that later for real...
augh im a little more motivated to get into it so hopefully that means i can get into it but knowing me that probably wont happen lol its okayyy we can get silly with it.
ok...changes have been made lol ive had to heavily re-evaluate a lot of what ive been working on...the big one is scarlet begonias bc ive decided to completely scrap what i have so far and do it from the top. AGAIN.
but nowww im just like omfg theres so much to do...like where do i start :(
i guess ill just re-evaluate my to do list and go from there huh...
ok i think how im going to go about it is treating it more hashtag seriously...gotta justify its existence you know...cant be out here with mindless porn anymore for real..but for reals i gotta get into it. and really break down i guess what i should be doing augh. i listed out all the works though and im just gonna go through one by one and re-structure the whole thing and make a little to do list to see whats going on...
okay took a while but ive sort of got through everything lol i didnt want to get through the bigger projects bc obv stuff to change and i wasnt sure How...but the main thing i had to accept was changing major elements and subsequently rewriting what i didnt want to...its for the greater good.
also decided to swap out the chaptered series for a different one that was completely original bc there was a LOT to be changed so. yeah i think im also gonna work through not really bulleting but more of just looking at all the stories and being like. this is a a major element to change. so i can do so accordingly. this mainly applies to stuff that i had been drafting but yeah.
anyway i think thats about everything i need to do huh...i have it all listed out so i can work on whatever. think im gonna get through some notes first though ! then ill see what i might do. havent done anything with joy in a hot minute huh...
started on writing joy again and omfg ive been stuck on the beginning for so long. usually i dont think about it and it just happens naturally but now im stressing...ive literally rewritten it like three times and i NEVER do that. i never rewrite as i write i think its counter-intuitive and it IS !!!!!! augh.
ok im finally up and i feel like i should get back to work. but i also dont know what i should work on first....i want to read and also watch movies and also actually write joy and also work on everything else to write so... ok i think im just gonna list out like things i should do in the day but not like in any sort of order.
okay i did that. so just like a bit of reading and a bit of watching. then i have working on the stuff that im Actually working on which as of now all the oneshots just need to be drafted so i listed doing two pages fromjust one per day. ill go down between them. and then working on re-bulleting through the larger projects and once thats done ill add them into the drafting. ALSO working on bulleting all the stories to the side but just one a day so i can slowly get through them. then the final thing of course is working on joy ! not specified what exactly but thats okay bc ill do whatever i feel like :)
watched a short film and omfg it was so good. like it was peak joyhal im actually gonna lose it. im hashtag inspired now i guess i gotta get through more. i also need to start reading but im unsure what to pick up first. need to get through my bookshelf but also want to start finding more horror books. i think im gonna try to find my old reading lsit and see how much of a mess it is and if its even usable...for now i think ill just grab a book at random and see how it goes.
gonna kms cause ive technically sort of kind of done everything on the daily to do list and i feel incredibly unfufilled. like i didnt bullet anything. i didnt get through drafting any major sections. but also i dont want to do more cause lol lmao. ugh. i guess i can just start working on joy but i really dont want to well no i DO want to but i feel like i have to do something else first. i dont know.
okay its the next day and i actually do feel better. i decided to just get into it and the first thing i did was bulleting and i feel like it went alright ! i sort of have an order of things to do now as well ; bulleting, drafting, re-bullting | reading | x poject | watching - so basically the first three are morning and then i have reading as a transition and then i have x project for the rest of the afternoon and then i can watch something at night ! and even if i dont get through a whole lot. just getting through some of it is better than nothing. and then im just gonna move to the next thing without too much worrying. just gotta actually do it !!!! anyway. off to work.
okay i got through drafting. decided to change it so i just need to write up one page minimum. if the section ends before then, then do another section etc. but i just need to get a page out. so its about 500 ish words ! anyway. next thing to do is finishing re-bulleting something ! which all i have is either SB or HTC which both require reading lol...i should probably do HTC bc itll take less time i think. i probably dont even need to like go through and take notes for the past stuff i could just continue with the draft tbh !
okay finished with getting through bulleting HTC !!! actually wasnt as bad as i thought it would be LOLLL it worked out pretty well in the end !!! i put adding previous notes as like a seperate thing so now all i have to do is go straight into drafting !!! so the very last thing to do with that would be bulleting SB :D i feel a lot better now. that will be a sort of major project but ill start on it tomorrowwww. so now all thats left is to read and i think im gonna have a shower before i move to working on joy ! problem is that i dont know what i should read...well more like i dont know if its worth finishing flowers in the attic lol...i think ill just stick with paradise lost tbh
got through reading !!! decided to stick with paradise lost and approach it like i used to do with shakespeare in school. so i found an audiobook recording and listened to someone speak while i read along. i cant listen to audiobooks on their own bc i need to see the words but i like having them speak while i read. i also did it in two times speed bc lol ... this is just an initial reading like im not going back and analyzing everything yet. i just want a general overview of the text. it worked too bc i understood for the most part everything that was going on !!! surely some references that went over my head but i could keep along with it.
ill probably get through one book of paradise lost per day bc the way its split up it takes about an hour to get through one book. with that in two times speed thats like half an hour. so i think i can get through it ! anyway gonna shower nowww and then ill start up working on joy ^_^ then whenever after that ill watch a movie. yippeeee
okay had my shower and i was going to eat but the pan was in the washing machine and it was dirty so i decided to just finish up the dishes and let it run lol ill eat after i do this.
decided that for working on an x project im sort of just gonna go down the line. ie im gonna draft then bullet then do a oneshot and then finish with some art. drafting is gonna be for one scene at a time and then bulleting is one chapter. then oneshot and art is whatever i wanna do lol but thats the sort of process i think.
but i am also wondering if i should be going ahead to draft the entire book first before i start rewriting hmmm i think i will actually do that...perhaps i mean i might change my mind. in the best world id have the entire thing drafted already but i think ill just focus one book at a time. so i can draft the whole book and then as im rewriting it i can go to another x project to start organizing and setting that all up okayyy
struggling because i havent even made any progress lol...ive been stuck with trying to do research for internet in the 90s and its so stupid. bc i hate mentioning anything pop-culture or anything semi-modern it just feels very bluh. but whatever i dont need to look into any of that i can just get through it i guess. im gonna go eat something first before i draft out the rest of this scene aughhhh
girl help i have literally never thought deeply about the How of writing. i just write it and then sometimes ill re-write it when it doesnt work out. but now i think im over-thinking and i cant even start like hello...this has never happened to me before
i feel like ive gained too much conciousness and realized i have too much free-will and now things dont make as much sense as they should have. now im thinking how other people do things and im not considering what just feels natural. i have too many options. god take away my free will !!!!
okay i think i need to figure out what sort of inner monologue joy has. i think thats the key here and then i can lean into her whole voice but what is that...
still havent written anything...i read another story which had a good plot but bad writing. well some-what of a good plot. but anyway it didnt really help me i guess. i have too much free will. im literally gonna kms im not even done with ONE page.
talked it out and also ate dinner and i feel like i fixed the plot holes now...so i think im going to re-write with what i have in mind and then it should be okay. so im gonna get back into it but also i do want to listen to music but i fear if i listen to music then ill just want to lay down but i want to listen to tunessss augh
okay well im up and im back to work. didnt watch a movie last night cause i did just sort of go to bed lol but i feel a little better with my approach to joy so hopefully there wont be any major roadblocks this time. or at least im going to just try to force my way through and then figure it out later. now im back to working !
i ate breakfast already but i do need to shower. i dont know if im going to shower before or after i finish this but thats whatever. i already bulleted the new story which i had done some work on so thats fine. next is just drafting a page which this is a fairly easy scene so hopefully i can just get through it. and then after that is finally re-bulleting SB which will take a while lol and then after that is reading then back to joy...gonna get through it !!!
finished drafting ! next thing to do is is re-bulleting SB ... which im not really sure how i should approach it lol which except to be fair i havent even opened the chapters yet so who knows how itll go down.
okay i had a shower and then i started on SB...decided to just list out the events in order and see how it goes ! so i got through the first chapter and it was only 11 scenes which wasnt bad. rn it was like 16k ish long but considering how much im going to cut down itll be significantly lower than that lol i dont have a word count though i kinda just want it under 10k. but it doesnt really matter im just gonna keep it as it is. the events are fairly okay tbh !
also i think what im going to do is just re-write the entire thing from scratch. im not gonna think about the added stuff or nothing. just re-write it from scratch and take in new characterization and everything. peace and love.
okay i got through the second chapter which had 17 scenes though like six of those were a quick fever-dream sequence so idk if it counts. but also im back to worrying abt pacing LOL...there was plot stuff i moved around too so i gotta change some shit for REAL ... but idk theyre relatively similar lengths sooo... idk im gonna have to get through the next chapters but i kinda wanna work on joy now so :p well i might actually do the third chapter just so im halfway through hmmm
ok i forgot the next thing to do was read so i got through like half of book 2 of paradise lost and its alright. nothing interesting has happened so far but they sure do love to monologue. it is interesting to see the development of hell though. anyway i actually decided to go back to SB and i changed her name which changed some textual implications but honestly work a bit better now lol all things considered at least. and i also read through chapter three and omfg its good. like its actually just good theres really not a whole lot change there if i had to be honest. slay.
but anyway im still going back and forth on the idea of a 'novel' bc i dont like that. im not a novel person. im a person who tells stories. and thats different. i mean i would like a physical copy of my story but thats different. i dont know. i wouldnt want to be sold in bookstores i think so that means i dont want to write a novel.
actually still havent worked on joy BUT i will. after i shower. lol. but i wrote a song and ate dinner and now im gonna shower then sit down and get through the rest of this scene i swear. i havent even looked at it so its not like im struggling just yet !
finished this first scene dear lord ! but its done so whatever. im pretty happy with how it turned out i think. next up in the brief scene she meets with her friends and then after that. i think its the first time she meets with hal ! so thats exciting lol anyway im tired now but i did actually get through a scene so im real happy !! i think im gonna lay down and then maybe start watching the movie. ill probably listen to music first before though so idk.
i have still yet to watch another movie. i really should do that but i get tired at night...i might have to watch durng the day and swap between movie and book ? unsure. either way im awake now and i should get back into it !! relatively easy just gotta get through bulleting and drafting yippeee
got through the bulleting which was alright and now im trying to get through drafting except im kinda like umm...not sure if i want to work on this one if im being honest LOL...i think i might shelve this and just have two oneshots to go between tbh bc this one is kind of a struggle. and also theres already so much to get through so...
i feel like i have to re-organize my to do list but im not gonna do that rn i want to just get through this drafting and - well okay nevermind not sure if i want to get through drafting...maybe i should just go straight into re-bulleting or working on SB bc i can finish that up entirely and then see what i should do next. bc idk if i was gonna read or watch a movie today. okayyy
umm really havent done much i guess. i got through bulleting SB but that needs to be heavily re-arranged cause lol...lmao...augh. well no not heavily but yeah it needs to be re-written at the very least. im gonna re-organize my whole to do list too i think im just gonna take off everything im drafting and just focus on very specific things i think. idk. i wanna get through bulleting everything so i can get through drafting everything etc etc...
okay yeah ive moved every project out except so SB since ive been working on that. and im just gonna get through bulleting. i think ill do 3 oneshots and then one longer project. meanwhile go back to working on SB and joy for real...
decided to move everything back and yeah just focus on bulleting. got through a little bit before i realized i didnt count and now i have to do more than i wanted to...bc if i do two oneshots a day then i could do one oneshot series and then one longer series and the counts would work out. but its 7 / 8 / 9 ... so i need to redo it acutally hold on. nevermind i thought i could do like. combine the last two and do two a day but then i realized thats literally the same fucking thing smfh...but i think i am going to try to get through the rest tonight so that it all actually lines up and then im free to do less work lol...
also still havent worked on joy and idk if i will tonight. i want to but im tired but also i want to. augh.
actually the next oneshot series i got had basically like no information and it was very derivative just random idea i had so i just deleted it lol and i decided that the long projects can stay at nine cause idgaf really and also it might take longer to do just one so....anyway. im done !
changed my mind and i want to write joy now so im going to do that. not even going to shower first i think ill just start on it tbh ! i have some thoughts and ideas.
okay took a while and i also ended up showering and doing a whole routine anyway. but i did get through this joy section !! the next scene is much, much longer but thats okayyyy its their very first meeting yippee !!
im a little happier with how i have my to do list too even though i didnt quite get through it today. i made good progress anyway.
hopefully tomorrow i can get through a bit more and also start on SB again lol ... theres gonna be a lot of actual re-bulleting as i try to figure out what can be salavged and what cant. i think i will have to completely re-do the first chapter though. its for the best...oh wait okay what if i just write through the section and then go back to read the old section to see if theres any specific details id like to transfer over hmmm so it can be an afterthought and not an influence hmmmm
actually got up, showered, ate breakfast, did dishes, and made a cup of tea! now im about to start on writing again. first thing up is getting through bulleting which isnt too bad. just four things. though im not sure if ill do things in order or not. might just keep it based on what i want to do next which could be similar most days before id ecided to do something different. but for the most part - bulleting and drafting.
okay i got through bulleting. for the most part at least i mean ill still need to go over to my other project but its not a major concern. also i didnt really bullet like the major project but i did get a lot of new information down and sort of generally wrote out the new sections. so theres still work to be done but its better then before sooo....anyway. i think ill make another cup of tea and i guess ill get into drafting ! not sure if i want to work on SB first or just go straight into random drafting...might randomly draft first idk...
actually i think i might just skip drafting for now...instead ill just focus on getting through working on which ive limited to SB...i think when everything is done being bulleted thats when i can start drafting through stuff and figure it out in a case by case basis. since actually i dont think i can really consider anything 'drafted' when all the stories that were drafted had to be completely changed LOL so im just stuck with SB
so yeah okay just getting through SB and nothing else for nowww so thats less work.
okay i actually ended up finishing the bulleting entirely for the other project ! so the next step is to finish the writing and then i can rewrite it once and then do final edits. it doesnt need to be absolutely perfect but just like. better than it is obviously lol - but thats a side project so im not entirely worried tbh ! so anyway. finished that up and im glad. next up is actually drafting. i have SB to do but also i moved this project to drafting as well so maybe i should do one hmmm oh well. its whatever. need to do SB / joy at the very least
okay well i did actually finishing drafting one thing LOL mainly bc i opened it and was like damn this is literally nothing and was like three paragraphs or smth. and also bc that was the last thing to draft in that book so godbless. ummm next thing up is actually SB i think. i just have one section listed out to do but augh. i mean ill look at it. starting is always the worst i think
decided to take a break and now its exactly two hours later lol
i need to start up on scarlet begonias but again its a bit difficult to decide if i want to completely do it from scratch or try to use what i have. cause a lot of the times what i have isnt as bad as i think it is so...
still havent written anything but i think i am going to re-write from the text bc honestly. okay its really not that bad plus at least for chapter one. i mean shes there. im not adding anything really just sort of taking things away. so i think im going to go through each scene and delete a bunch of the unnecessary details and just leave the rest. and then do it like page by page lol..
help im halfway through and i havent even written anything. but i have deleted a lot lol ... i think im gonna go by page count too as well idk like do a page in-between other stuff.
okay well i got through the rest of the chapter and i also ate dinner. and showered. and also looked at a possible job but idk. anyway i got through that and it ended up just under 10k and 25 pages which is honestly perfect. decided i want to do five pages a day which is sort of a lot but also not really tbh since im just gonna rewrite directly from the text. i also need to start on joy augh. but yeah the plan is i can do an SB page in between everything else that im doing. like in between bulleting and so on. sort of want to start on it tonight but ill have to see.
i just remembered that i did get through bulleting the rest of the next joy scene so that shouldnt be too difficult i dont think. would it be worth bulleting the rest of joy so i can also be like ; five pages of joy. but rather than taking them to rewrite its more like finish drafting that many pages. maybe. i think that would work better than one or so scenes.
did get through two pages of joy ! but then i was tired. but i wasnt tired so i just laid in bed all night before i redownloaded reddit bc clearly smth is wrong with me mentally. anyway who cares bc now instead im back to working. turned off my phone and everything. i think im going to do one page of SB first then bullet. and switch between them until everything is done.
okay well i tried to start on SB but now im sort of just staring at the page bc i forgot its actually rewriting and not like. not re-writing...augh so even if i can start getting into drafting the actual rewriting is still difficult. i need to get through ittttt
didnt finish with SB yet but i did get through bulleting. was stuck on one cause it was a bigger project but then i decided to move it somewhere else to work on cause theres some stuff going on w that lol. but now im back to sort of working and the three things i can do is ; rewrite SB / clean SB chapter / draft helios - which im not sure what order im gonna do what in tbh...the next chapter of SB to clean has 17k words omfg girl...i dont know how or really what ill be drafting for helios yet either. actually i lied cause im gonna get everything to a number that can be split by two or three ! which is nine oneshots omfg except drafting should be faster ummm lets see. anywayyy
okay wait i think ill do it like - have a wheel and have it as drafting, cleaning, or rewriting and just keep spinning that whenever lol. and then i can just go between it all peace and love and ill probably split cleaning up by scenes :p
okay seperated the scenes in the next chapter and i decided to put it all into a wheel but have it all indivudaly spread out so i can see how much it goes down and also theres a smaller chance of getting 'rewrite' multiple times in a row bc its the least to do but also the longest lol
okay well ive been all over the place but i did just finish bulleting through the rest of everything. sort of kind of. idk. ive been working on and off and have been struggling with getting into rewriting and such. well i sort of kinda wanna get into it and do the next part but idk how to deal with everything else now...idk idkkkkk
okay slay well i actually got through rewriting SB + cleaning some of the next chapter + drafting a few helios oneshots - so now all thats left of today is to draft a few joy pages. and bullet a little but thats easy...im actually surprised i managed to get through it tbh i mean i guess since starting SB the rest of the rewrite comes easier lol...
anyway im going to shower and then im going to work on that and then figure out wtf to do next like in regards to everything else i guess. i mean mostly with drafting bc i got it put together slightly. idk. idkkk oh well
okay well i actually managed to get through everything AND i did a little more bc i decided to rebullet the rest of the first joy chapter bc i had two scenes left. one of which was pretty long lol but hopefully i can get through it faster ! also wow its so late. or early. idk i havent slept yet but i made it throughhh so im gonna go to bed now lol and hopefully get through it all tomorrow !!
it should be somewhat faster though bc i did manage to get through what i was supposed to today or yesterday even with a late start + lots of dicking around...and i did more then i was supposed to. theres technically no more bulleting as well but i am going to be organizing all the files and i was going to do it after i finished bulleting but its late so ill leave it for the real morning. goodnight.
well im up and i started working sort of. im kind of re-organizing my projects again. except im viewing it from an overall stance and considering how it all works in conjunction. but it means that ive basically taken out all my 'chaptered series' so multi-part works with multiple chapters. and i changed them to oneshot series or just a oneshot LOL guess its just not for me huh. anyway got through that so im gonna get through chaptered next and then oneshot series and then...idk see how it goes ! the actual thing to do is rewriting SB which shouldnt be too hard at this point. and also joy. yeah
okay well i immediately decided i dont want chaptered either so i think im going just going to split everything into oneshot / series / other. so its only three listed which does make me feel a whole lot better. so it can be a sort of case by case basis...i dont need hyper-specific labels...anyway gotta sort out the rest of the series and then get to work...
okay i think i have the structure !!! basically i chose one project from each to Focus on. being SB for series / PGO for oneshot / LT for other. pgo is already heavily written out PLUS i actually do like the story a lot. so thats fine. lt is whatever but its a cyoa story without any visuals so i think its a good starting point. something simple to get a hold of!
in between that im also going to start drafting or bulleting the rest at random. basically doing as i was ie putting names in a wheel and just working on whatever it says. not necessarily to any required length more just vibes and personal preference. but itll get me to work while i do other stuff.
and then of course also joy. but thats about it !!! now i think ill start and actually get through it peace and love
okay i ate and then i also read through PGO which wasnt that bad. changed a detail here and there but she is what she is. but im also wondering if i should just go ahead and finish the entire draft LOL its like one or so pages of bulleted notes and such. and if i just get through the drafting then it means im left to rewrite...which works better on the to do list visually. but also i do need to get through the other one too AUGH ! okay maybe thats what ill do for the rest of the day actually. draft this + clean up SB + bullet other stuff lol
well its been a while since i used this site cause i got really into music again ! but i want to figure something out so i can keep working. i just have so many projects its not funny ! oh well. i need to figure out what to work on next.
decided i want to get back into writing and since its a new month decided i want to try nanowrimo but its not november. im just doing it for fun. well basically i just want to finish drafting SB but i need to convince myself to like my story again. or rather just be interested. augh i need to just do some goddamn progress. well really i need to stop trying to edit and focus on getting through a readable draft with everything that needs to be there.
jesus im reading back on SB finally and this is so bad. like genuinely such bad writing lol...girl help....i also think i need to change the title. i hate that. augh.
kind of sort of got through the first two scenes. which dont really count bc i already rewrote them lol augh. i kind of want to just continue this very passive sort of editing though im not sure if i can bc obv the first chapter is all super old writing. well maybe i can get through it. i just need to remind myself that its going to suckkkk and i shouldnt have shown that one guy lol
got through the third scene and its really bad LOL tbf i was distracted bc my stupid ass brother is being loud. and generally just distracted. im about a hundred words off the word count. so i think i will have to do the next scene as well though its much longer so ill do it later today. just gotta get through it i guess !